What is it that is drawing me home. Why the constant excitement to go to a place that may be uncomfortable compared to where I am now. A place that I have never even been to? I have no idea. Part of my journey has been to acknowledge that I don’t have all of the answers, matter of fact I don’t have any answers. Yet here I am up up all night, I missed my zumba class and I’m desperately trying to finish my go north application and plan a one month vacay with basically no finances and a senior in high school. Wow. That is me and my big chutzpah! I know that if I am supposed to be there, I will. So this itch won’t go away until I get away.
I have no idea where I will end up but on my pilot trip I plan on looking at Haifa, Hadera, Nahariya and just for dreaming purposes, Tel Aviv. I have been working on my application at the pace of a turtle but it’s getting done, nonetheless. Each day I know I will be where I will be but for now…. I am picking a spot
So I have been reading all of this madness about reform jews and this and that and I immediately popped an email to my Aliyah advisor who is helping me along the way on my journey. She got back with me swiftly. I am so happy I have someone in Israel guiding me. I used to have a different advisor who I really liked but this diva is new to me. She’s on it so obviously that’s how Nefesh B Nefesh rolls. I’m excited; I still have tons of work to do but Hashem willing, this brown sugar jew is well on her way to starting a new adventure. I am hopeful that this will be fun and challenging all in one big ball. Life isn’t about complacency for me it’s about living and being the best human being that I can be. I’m nervous but in a good way because deep inside of myself I KNOW I am going to be just fine ♡♡
I don’t know when. I don’t know how. I don’t know how long. I do know that I want to give you a try. When I say next year in Jerusalem, I want to hop on a train and be there…in an hour. I have not been blogging for a moment but the desire is the same. Hashem willing I will be where I want to be. And for this day today, I am extremely grateful
This has got to be one of the most intense application processes that I have ever been through in my life. If you want something bad enough or think you want something bad enough, you will just about do anything! I don’t pretend to have all of the answers but I know whatever is in store for me it’s huge.. Today I cried tears of joy and confirmation and excitement when I scribed a letter in the Torah that my shul is having created in honor of its 50th anniversary.
The letter I was assigned was Lamed!
Now I had no idea how deep the meaning would be for me until I heard the rabbi/sefer explain the meaning of it. Here are couple of cool facts… The Lamed is the tallest letter in the aleph bet, it is going straight up and is associated with teaching and learning. The sefer instructed me that Torah teaches us to be better each day than we were the day before, to forever be that slave leaving Egypt. I can not explain everything and that’s ok because I tucked it deep in to a little place inside of me. What I am excited about is though my life may not be everything I want and more at this moment, I know things are going just as planned!
I love this! This defines my ambition every day to take chances and live life to the fullest. – http://pinterest.com/pin/441000988487958412/?s=3&m=wordpress